The Last Sapien | our two lives

Our two lives on a single trip | Like the cranking old subway carts you can see around Boston, either underground or while strolling to their night parking squeaking and buffing, where you can see a giant spark coming out the rails realizing the power of electricity that drives these trains. It is the instant power drain between the rails and the high power line, this is similar to how we view our life: Between the notion of loosing everything and the nothing to lose approaches we constantly run between. Unlike the subway these could also drive us backwards, or more often downwards.

This constant distance between the railroad tracks that is believed to be derived from the times of the roman chariots (Well, it is not https://trn.trains.com/railroads/abcs-of-railroading/2006/05/a-history-of-track-gauge), though these are not far different regardless.

It is the constant gap in our thoughts that makes us do ( nothing to lose) or not do (am about to lose it all) no wonder we feel sometimes that our brain fries itself to death by overthinking, the urge to fight or flight, go for a war or just forgive.

This notion is not put to rest even when we reflect on things, where the same thing could be looked at as a victory or a complete defeat. As much as we agree that the majority of the truth is found somewhere in the gray area, our mind thinks in ones and zeros, similar to a computer program. Connect disconnect, light, dark, black white. The colors we see, the voices we here, the things we smell or the feelings we have are strongly influenced by our polar thinking and builds it accordingly.

Our little brain/processor has not been upgraded for many years now - it has got a lot of external assistance coming from smart ideas, trying to help our decision logic that is quite old. Throughout time we have become to realize that there are some other options though these are tightly packed in this narrow gauge between the two rails. We are very fast lean towards one of the two losing it all or losing nothing.

Think about the time you bought your first car, well it could be true for the second or any car buying experience, nevertheless when you buy a house, any large expense or investment, signing a contract for work or lease, the notion of no way back and dealing with the consequences. Making decisions about other people's life. Making decisions about your life that affect others. These are times that our mind is glowing like the northern lights to make sense to the many details that we try to simplify and digest in quantities that we can visualize.

We run our life jumping from one track to the other as if we constantly hopping between the life we love as we accept that there nothing to lose - or the life we reject as we are losing everything. Hope you chose the right track to live your life ... safe journey.