The Last Sapien | jumping trains

Jumping Trains (dedicated to my friend Matt) | There is a song by Sting saying that "If you love somebody set them free . . ." It is true when it comes for the living but of greater importance for the departed. Losing someone dear is a devastating experience losing a parent makes it few folds more. Overwhelmed by the interchanging notion that you are left at the station when the rest of the world continued or that you have left that standing building and jumped on the train looking back and the farther you are the more your longing to go back just grows.

For you, the world came to a halt but everything else is moving, not sure which one is the right thing, is there a right thing to feel at these junctions in life?

The connection between body and soul is a great unknown and many beliefs run around it, but we have the freedom to believe that the people that brought us to the world and left to theirs, are visiting with us, no hug or pat on the shoulder but you know they are there at points in your life when you feel specially lucky or at great joy, you find them in your thoughts and thanking them for their visit ( taking some ideas from Ari De Luka's God's Mountain). Yesterday was July 4th - which is always a day of celebration, though it is getting strange when it falls on the weekend, making it an extended one where it feels that Saturday and Sunday just take some of the 'holiness' than if it was on a weekday. This year it turned to be the most 'diagonal' Forth of July in many years as there were no or hardly any fireworks to avoid crowding and it was on a weekend. No holiness and no festivity. On the radio I overheard heard a song that ran like if I die on fourth of July you could celebrate your independence with fireworks, and yeah, if we take the pain out of the equation, we should set them free and re-live our life, this time around with no one to look back to - but to move ahead knowing that we are the ones that are looked back at - we are the ones to pat on the shoulders, make sure to hug so long we can and let the memories bring back the reasons why it is so important. It's time to hop back on that train to take us for the ride to the rest of our lives and nonetheless enjoy the journey, regardless of the station we boarded from.